The Best Creative Nonfiction (Volume 1) by Lee Gutkind

Author:Lee Gutkind
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: W. W. Norton & Company
Published: 2009-11-15T00:00:00+00:00

The Poet’s Mother’s Deathbed Conversion

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My mom was in her hospital bed, smiling with rare warmth. The whiteness of the room was intense under the fluorescent lights. Maybe she was glad because I was the only one in our family to go to see her.

Without me saying anything, she said, “Go ahead, be happy.”

“What are you talking about?” I asked.

“I want you to just be happy.”

Seeing my puzzled expression, she finally said, “You can write poetry.”

I was shocked, and she kept smiling. This was the same person who was so hell-bent on me being in science, math, or law. The same person who had said, “Poetry is garbage. Why do you want to add more garbage to the garbage of all the lousy people of the world?”

I was shocked but hoping to believe it, after all. This time she could be dead in the near future. Maybe this was her deathbed conversion into a supportive mom. She didn’t have much else to say, and neither did I.

I felt like a terrible dark cloud had been lifted off my head.

I wondered as I drove away if I hadn’t misjudged her all my life.

But then a few weeks later the specialists sorted it out, and it wasn’t advanced liver cancer. It wasn’t any kind of cancer. It was just an anomaly. So she was out and feeling strong again like her old self at home, in her kitchen.

Then she told me, “You know what I said in the hospital?”

“Yes,” I smiled. This was one of the few truly happy memories I had of her.

“Well, forget it. I only said that because I thought I was dying.”

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